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been looking for job vacancy at classified ever since i got back from work. what can be more pathetic than to work 6 hours per week and earn $33. i repeat, per week! i dont mind if its per day. i hate it when im in need for cash, i have to face this difficulty which I have never come across before. Usually, we would at least get 12 hours and above per week. dont you give me excuses that we're cutting up cost, which is bullshit! if that's the case, why is it that that particular person gets a whole lot of hours more than others? im not good at bootlicking like some people, acting all pitiful and gaining some people sympathy. im not that type of person. the workplace is so corrupted now! my god. actions of biasness being practiced, bootlicking and the type of "if-youre-nice-to-me-i'll-be-nice-to-you-and-give-you-what-you-want" & "if-you-mess-with-me-i'll-give-you-hell". tskk. youre a grown up and youre still behaving that way? act your age, not your shoe size! im not saying that im that perfect, i admit i do let my emotions rule me and end up making stupid mistakes. i can be a tigress at times and be rude to some people when they really get on my nerves. but if that particular person did admit their mistake, i will forgive&forget but youve gotta try hard to really soften my heart. But after a while, I’ll be fine. the same goes to me&b. whenever we have s small argument and he decide to give in, i will tend to be mengada-ngada like how he would always say. &i dont care if youre some high class chap or my manager or whoever, but if you want respect, youve gotta earn it. get it? & I think, the company’s pretty much screwed up too.

enough said about that stupid place. i cant be bothered. ive been saying that i want to leave that place for two years already but nothing's been done and i think, i should really do it right now. ive slogged? my ass out there at times and i should not hold myself back with the memories. i should be firm with my decision and im gonna do it, at the right time. its time i move on. i hope, i'll be able to work at the same place as priscilla. at least, that will help me in my future. ive been looking for job vacancies at clinics and childcare centre. these two are my interest now and i hope, i will benefit something from there. pleasepleaseplease, pray hard for me. and uncle said right now, they don’t need any part timers. :(

on my way back home, something got me thinking. sometimes, we think that its better to run away from problems we face and not talk about it so as to avoid conflict, which is good. but on the other hand. its not good to bottle things up and end up you still feel the dissatisfaction. So when you feel that way, do something that can make you feel better and shrug it off, that is shopping! but the problem is, i cant! so ive got a few options lined up for me which requires no money, which is blogging and vent everything out. If that doesn’t work, I turn to online movie marathon&editting pictures. and once im out of movies to watch and pictures to edit, books will be another comfort zone for me. and i hope by then, i'll feel soooooooo much better.

now, jai ho's on the radio. somehow, i feel that im no longer pissed. that's why they say, music's the remedy to broken heart or anything that's gotta to do with feelings.

So if you ever feel that you had a bad day, go to your ipod/mp3 and listen to your favourite song. Hope that works for you too! (;