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foreverandeverbabe
haziqah idris.ar
when life pushes you around&you get hit hard,
you just gotta rise, look ahead&move on.
Saturday, March 22, 2008, 12:41 PM
today was prettaye much the worst day in my 2008,yet. i missed the old staffs in secret recipe. i missed it when everybody hate the same person¬ backstabbing each other. always whining&complaining to each other secretly. things are very much different now. the workers are all hating each other, telling me this and that; when the management's doing all right now. i just want a happy working environment. i do wanna make peace. how do i make peace when im sure, nothing will turn good. she's been appreciating me, but how about the rest. you know somehow, somewhat, they just think youre nothing? i missed rilla&tina. i missed when they help us around when we're uber busy, rather than ringing here and there&wayting for us to come up to them. where's the team cooperation? is it me or is it them? things are getting waaaaaay out of hand sometimes&it just gets on my nerves. now, what? blame the management or just the workers?&you, thanks for not making me feel any better. maybe blame it on me for always venting my pathetic anger on you. i dont get whuts your point, changing of attitude. whuts the use of me giving in? im just trying to change for the better of us, but i always fail in everything i do. instead of making things right, im always making it worse. a total f-a-i-l-u-r-e. i just dotno whut else should i do. sigh*
on the brighter note, im glad my family had late night supper at mustafa where we had our laughs, sharing whut happen at work for me&abang, adik with his school¬ funny jokes, how dad annoys mum, now i understood where i got it from. finally i feel the love. how i wish, this could just stay this way forever....
this big ego is just in me. i just dotno if i should make the first move. i was being nice just now....... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. tellme is b&j is still on?
this is when i need my girls&those cherished. i missed those tymes where my gfs/whoever will just drop by to say hi to me. they just make my day. where did all of that go ......... ?????
i sound lyke a depressed woman. maybe i am.